The Gift
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Lyrics
Verse 1
My father was a nice man until he let his problems make him mean
So I pissed off all of my friends, and I’ve been terrified you’d turn on me, I’d
Pre-Chorus 1
Suffocate in rose thorns, I failed at his scoreboard
Couldn’t figure why he never loved me
Knocked me down ‘til late June, filled me full of hate, too
Had to let it go so I could love
Chorus
I am enough, you helped me see
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave to me
I’ve learned to trust outside of me
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave me
Verse 2
I drown in daddy issues, I would’ve told them “no” if I’d known I can, I
Laugh at all I’ve been through, but I no longer let lovers hold my hand
Pre-Chorus 2
Cupid with his arrow hits me as the wind blows
Doesn’t matter how I might be feeling
Men who seem to haunt me, I know you don’t want me
But you stay right here because you love me
Chorus
I am enough, you helped me see
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave to me
I’ve learned to trust outside of me
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave me
Bridge
Lived as my bad side, it was a sad sight
I had to finally be a better person
Said all my goodbyes, now I am alright
I gave up all the lies that I was versed in
I settled all the shit he put me through
I did it so I could be friends with you
Chorus
I am enough, you helped me see
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave to me
I’ve learned to trust and just let be
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave me
I am enough, you helped me see
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave to me
I’ve learned to trust outside of me
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave me
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave to me
I’m grateful for the gift that you gave me
“My coach mentioned that you have become my muse. I was not expecting that to be an actual thing, nor did I anticipate it to be you. But I guess it’s true, you don’t get to decide what inspires you. I guess I just hope I am or I can return the favor in some small way. You once said seeing me so invested in music and songwriting was inspiring for you. Now that you’re at a crossroads with streaming, hopefully my being so amped about ‘(Covet)’ will spark something in you. But like I said, you can’t control when inspiration strikes nor who becomes you muse. So I can only hope I’m helping in some way.”
Excerpt from To You: The Nedy Johnson Diaries”
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