To You, Farewell

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Verse 1

You invited me to sit under your thumb

I made my decision though I know it’s dumb

Can’t hide from yourself, you haven’t paid your dues

You think you use logic to explain the truth

Chorus

But I see through

(Shouldn’t have given my all, my orders hovered too tall

I waited months for your call)

And I loved you

(I couldn’t tell you the truth, I was afraid that I’d lose you

And I just couldn’t lose you)

Verse 2

Took eight months to see that you were playing games

I can’t like, you’re well aware I did the same

Now I can admit we must have played it wrong

Cause I still can’t bear to send you any song

Chorus

I wrote to you

(Your love was a silly notion, but I fell for your bullshit

Opened up my emotions)

And I loved you

(I couldn’t tell you the truth, I was afraid that I’d lose you

And I just couldn’t lose you)

(I miss you, I miss you, I miss you

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you

Oh, I miss you)

Bridge

Tragedy is us, magic turned to dust

Was never the one, but we had some fun

Lies were all I heard, took you at your word

I deserve the earth, I will never be your girl

(I miss you, I miss you, I miss you)

No, I’ll never be your girl

(Oh, I miss you)

Verse 3

Take our memories and hide them far away

If nothing else just know you were my saving grace

Chorus

And I’m no fool

(You had me out here believing, we both know you’d never leave me)

You loved me too

(I couldn’t tell you the truth, I was afraid that I’d lose you

And I just couldn’t lose)

And I love you

“I’ve been his hoe this entire time. Yes, he eventually told me that he’s uncomfortable hanging out around me alone, but now I’m starting to understand why. Because he wants to play the role of the faithful boyfriend, but doesn’t actually want to be the faithful boyfriend. I was right before, I am just some doe-eyed puppy dog dumb bitch that he’s kept around to boost his ego.

“I did so willingly and fully aware. I don’t begrudge him of this. It was my choice. And I know he loves me in his way. However, I deserve someone who will love me wholeheartedly. That will respect me. That will cherish me and be grateful. That loves themselves and only wants to share that with me.

“Ironically it’s through Mr. Logic that I know I deserve that.”

Excerpt from To You: The Nedy Johnson Diaries”

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